Thursday, October 07, 2010

Soaking in Some Love

I'm not sure why it always seems to work out that David is out of town and there's some sort of personal crisis going on.  He's in Philadelphia for some geeky World Championship Bridge Tournament.  I should be more supportive, but I found myself being irritated and hanging up on him too quickly as he was saying the sweet "good bye-I-Love-you's".  I feel badly, so now I sit and wait for the 8 pm break call back to apologize.  If you're married or in a relationship, you know the drill.

Certainly I haven't been lacking in love and support from my friends.  Waking up this morning to an inbox full of emotional encouragement  was incredible.  I felt uplifted - like some invisible force was holding me up under my arms.  I've been reading the blog comments and emails several times.  If somebody took the time to write me, I want to fully allow their kind words to penetrate my heart.  I have allowed myself to feel like such a loser, so you have no idea how much all this means to me right now. 

I've had some rescue opportunities come my way.  I don't think I'm interested in joining another rescue organization at this point.  I really don't want to be mistreated again.  Of course, I sit here and think about the cats in the shelters and wonder how soon I can pull myself together so that I can rescue them. 

Gah! 

3 comments:

JLi said...

Beth, you are an amazing person and I am in awe every day when I read your blog. I can completely understand where you are coming from and people think that rescue people would carry that compassion over to the rest of their lives and be caring people but I was also mistreated by a bunch of "rescuers" on a discussion board back in the spring~completely and totally horribly harrassed and cyber bullied by a bunch of horrible people that could hide behind their computers and trash me and beat me down so I KNOW what you went through in that room. Trust me in that I would have stood up in support of you in that room and they would not have gotten away with what they did to you. How awful to treat another human being like this...especially someone so caring and compassionate as you. Someone who gives so much of themselves, their time, and personal money.
You will continue to do great things...wait, even better things...because your heart is still with the cats that need you. If I lived near, I would foster for you in a heartbeat.
Hang in there, I know what you went through with those people...
Hugs...

Erika said...

I'm sure it will be exciting to have some time off and to yourself. I can't wait to hear about your next adventures in cat world!

Alexandra said...

Dear Beth - I don't know what to say, but wanted to say something quickly - I picked TCR because of you, and they're losing a tremendous amount by not having you around. I'm so sorry for the way you were treated. You've done so much good for so many cats and people and have such a gift for it that I really hope you continue. I'll be happy to help wherever you go next.