Tuesday, October 12, 2010

Contemplating

It's been a whirlwind week as I've been working through my new life.   Meals are better, my house is cleaner, and my mother is thrilled that I've been calling her more often.  It felt odd that there were no cat-related emergency calls over the Canadian Thanksgiving. 

I've received more than 100 emails from friends about my resignation from the rescue.  They all shared the same sadness that I have for the cats that I cannot help at this point.

David surprised me the other night when he said that I should start my own rescue.  My own rescue takes money that I really don't have right now.  It would be great if every cat I rescued came with a tag that said, "I'm certifiably healthy and won't cost the rescue any money."  But we all know things don't work that way.  It would be great if I could start with some padding.  Years ago when I was President of another rescue, I would spend about $2000.00 per month of my own money just to keep up the rescue's veterinary bills.  I don't want to be in that position again. 

David thinks it would probably be cheaper in the long run to have my own rescue rather than spending $$$ at the stores like I have this week with all the extra time on my hands.  C'mon....it wasn't THAT bad!

Needless to say, I'm feeling much better and much, much happier about my decision to leave the rescue.  Part of me feels guilty about the "happy part", because of the cats at the shelter, but I truly feel as if I have been neglecting myself for far too long.  I didn't realize it until I woke up 5 days in a row feeling like a million bucks. 

Yes, I have moments where I'm chomping at the bit to dig back in, but today wasn't one of them.  Today, I went grocery shopping and spent $25.00 on a REALLY ugly fluffy cat bed at the pet store...

 ...I couldn't help but think that the $25.00 spent would be a vaccination for a cat in need...

10 comments:

Anonymous said...

Can you not register as a charity etc ? Start gathering donations ???

House of the Discarded said...

I could...sure. But who wants to donate to a non-existent charity? It'll have to come out of my pocket initially, I think.

Cindy, Bertie, Sammy & O'Malley said...

Obviously I'm completely selfish but I would *love* for you to start your own rescue :-) and you know I'd foster for you. Money, however, that could be an issue...
No idea how much 'padding' you'd need to start a rescue but I would imagine it would have to be substantial...

If only I'd win the lottery!

Cindy

Allison at Novice Life said...

I know exactly how you feel Beth; I have been in your position before and I have felt guilty for the horses I wasn't helping, but it was a sigh of relief to have my life back.

Enjoy now....you will rescue again I am sure :)

Thε Countεss said...

I really hope you do not give up rescuing cats in need. I have never seen someone go to the lengths you have, for a fluffy friend that needs a second, or third chance. Those cats, sadly, will probably won't see such thing happening for them without another YOU. Not trying to make you feel guilty, you deserve a happy living. I just wish upon a star.

Anonymous said...

Oh Beth I wish you would start your own Shelter esp. with all your experience and knowledge. I am helping out my third rescue at the moment and I am not happy at all where I am at the moment. I love to foster but like you I have been taken advantage of and tossed away like a rag when I no longer fit their needs. What I have discovered is that the women are too worried about power in the board and loose site of why they are there in the first place. It would be so nice to help someone where as the cats and kittens are the first concern.

raina said...

Were you to start your own, I would sign up as a monthly donor :)

House of the Discarded said...

Raina: **Happy Tears**! :) :)

House of the Discarded said...

Raina: **Happy Tears**! :) :)

Anonymous said...

Hahahaha!! Laughed out loud at D saying that rescue is cheaper than your shopping bills!! ;))

You know I'd be on board :)

jen