Friday, October 09, 2009

One Step Forward...Two Steps Back

I rescued two adorable buff coloured cats on the same day. One survived and the other didn't. I'm grieving for the loss of Louie today:

I'm angry that a new foster Mom got hurt when he passed away.

I'm angry that when I called the vets this morning I heard the staff crying because they couldn't save him.

I'm angry that some jerkoff dumped a beautiful healthy kitten like Louie at the shelter.

Many thank you's to all who tried to save Louie's life. At least he died with people trying to SAVE his life.

The other buff guy named "Calvin" is doing beautifully. He's happy, healthy and being spoiled rotten by his foster family:

(I love that Calvin is sleeping on a white duvet and has that little mouse by his feet)

A reminder what Calvin looked like when he arrived at the shelter:

My survival instinct tells me to concentrate on the one that survived. But I owe it to Louie to grieve for him and the others that died this morning at the shelter.

I'm going to grieve. But then I'm going to keep moving forward and doing what I do - but dammit, some days are harder than others to emotionally start over.


Anonymous said...

Oh my god, that is so true. I plan to numb the loss of Chloe by playing xbox until I collapse tonight.

Why did Louie die? What was wrong with him?

Anonymous said...

Hi Beth

At least Louie didn't die in the shelter. He died with those who cared. Maybe his foster mom can help another soul at the shelter... I was angry last night thinking about all those cats who through no fault of their own are there and at the government for not doing discounted spay and neuters like they should. I helped out at a private shelter today, scooped at least 8 boxes, probably like you did! You're doing great! Caroline

Smartypants said...

Thank you for this post - its been a very sad day, and a tough week, but we are happy that Louie isn't suffering anymore. We just wish we could have been there with him at the end. We sure fell in love with him hard and fast, and will miss him. Thank you, Beth, for bringing him into our lives!

Crystal said...

Hey Beth, so sorry:( Louie was absolutely beautiful and sweet...what happened to that adorable boy? Thank you to his foster mom for loving him. So bittersweet, but I am so relieved he passed knowing what it felt like to be loved - if only for a little while...

Joanne said...

Beth, I don't have your email anymore as I no longer work at Davies and it was on the system there. Long story... but in any event I was wondering if you could help me. I watched the cat program last night and I want to get ahold of the man who feeds the cats in the beaches and the woman who feeds them in the boat yard so I can buy them some cat food and maybe some stuff to make shelters for the winter. If you know who they are, can you please let me know how to get in touch with them. I was so upset watching the program that I can't remembe their names. My email is Fingers crossed. BTW, my friend and I have managed to catch, vet and rehome all but two of the cats in the cemetery behind us. It was a long haul but it is almost over. Two more little souls to save and it is done. Thanks in advance.

Sharon said...

Hey Beth! I just wanted to drop you a note. I stumbled across your blog by accident, and I've been following it ever since. Each day I am amazed by your strength, dedication and compassion to animals that may never have felt that before. I cannot begin to imagine how hard/rewarding/heartbreaking/inspiring each day must be for you, and want to thank you for sharing your journey. I often refer friends here if they begin taking about getting a cat. (I also refer people who aren't really friends and seem really wishy washy about getting pets, because seeing what happens when they shrink from their responsibilites has been an eye opener.

Anyways... There's a Blogger "award" called the gorgeous blogger award, and when someone recieves it, they are to pass it on t 7 bloggers who inspire them. I recieved it this AM, and in my post named your site as one that moves me daily.

Just wanted to pass along a thank you from the 2 legged variety.

House of the Discarded said...

Sharon: Wow!!! Thank you so much - I can't tell you how much I appreciate the inspirational thoughts. Some days I need more motivation than others - your timing was perfect.


Elizabeth said...

Beth i'm sorry about Louie its a real shame.

I started reading your blog a few months ago and I don't know how you do it day after day.

I foster orphaned kittens down here in Philly and I break down everytime I go in to choose a new litter. Normaly I have a choice between litters knowing that those other litters won't see past 6pm that night. I always come home, do my first feeding and cry for the next two hours (then i have to stop and feed them again). Thanks for all you do.

House of the Discarded said...

Elizabeth: Sounds like you're doing a great job! As you know, I can relate. Keep at it in Philly! :)